it's only tuesday?

wait a minute...it's only february?

why in the world do i want this school year to end soooooo damn badly? when it ends, there are going to be tons of changes and i don't know what to honestly say about that.

today, i was ok. i've been trying to keep myself together and not go crazy and give up on mere frustration. i'm tired. so damn tired. i'm tired of being polite and for willing to accept any late work. i feel like i'm being abused by these kids and i don't know how much more i can stand.

i know i need to get away. i know that i spoke of escape and how i'm trying to avoid that, but i feel like...i need a moment to breathe. a moment to myself to rejuvenate myself. i feel like all my creative energy, all my motivation for doing something great are gone. i feel like shit.

and my ankle. omg. it is KILLING me right now. it's soooooo tender, and it's so painful =( i don't know what to do. i just want everythign to be alright already coz i'm tired of waiting. wow...i just realized that's the first time i've been impatient. that's a weird realization.

i want to elaborate more, but i'm still at work and don't want to all of a sudden turn into just a bunch of tears. i'm just trying to keep myself together.